LOVE FROM THE CRYSTAL PALACE "NOW" (Poem dedicated with love to my dear friends) Dear friends and follower @ s:
As for personal circumstances, I have too much time to write something new and gently as I see you still doing much @ s comments on my "Christmas Reflections", which take several weeks and hanging from the blog, I thought to open up a little more to you @ s from walking a part of me, unknown and vulnerable, with few words I wrote many months ago and who speak of a fundamental value in my life, I think playing with your permission, more often:
FRIENDSHIP.
Because friendship is another of my incentive to live.
And for you @ s?
Here you have a letter and a poem I wrote to my friends last spring from a magical place for me, in a moment, the weakness and the pain eased, with the hope and love.
Hope you like it.
A kiss.
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18 May 2010 - At 18 hours
(Handwritten Word and then moved to my home, albeit with subsequent amendments)
From the meadow surrounding the Crystal Palace to my friends. (Including those to which I can not keep this email, for different reasons, but which I know are very happy for me to read them.)
But especially for "my girls" who are going through difficult times, because with every step that I can give out, I'll be much closer to them and willing to run away when they need me.
I'm sitting in the grass front of the Palacio de Cristal del Retiro.
Looking at the lake and watching the ducks and turtles splashing in the water.
And as the black swans swim with your head up proud.
And remembering that a while ago, I saw the tents and a ravenous goldfish fighting for the crumbs of bread thrown to them for walks.
Lately there are many days that I come to this place and instead of taking the Metro, as I walk from my house. About an hour and a half walk, every time I find it more rewarding.
I do so because this place fascinates me and is great to feel alone and free.
Here meditate and relax, I can leave the mind blank and rest.
Here read, write, think much about my life and my problems, and also the joys that sometimes brings me into existence.
And one of my greatest joys is you, my friends of the soul, and one of my greatest sorrow, when I know that some are having a tough time.
The friendship of each one of you comes from a different time of my life and my circumstances. Your lives have nothing to do with each other and yet all mine complementáis. I love you and need you!
You have always been in my thoughts and in my heart since I know you.
And I know you rejoice with me, to know that I am happy in solitude, will battle the odious "agoraphobia" so many tears of helplessness and rage made me spill.
Somehow I feel that my life is different since I can again enjoy places like this, a place full of magic and weightlessness, the sight of which I carried with the vehicle of my own imagination , to 1887, which was built ; this wonderful Palacio de Cristal for the exhibition of the Philippines in Madrid. But that's only sometimes, because I love to enjoy its beautiful reality of the spring of 2010.
And so I come here almost every day, sometimes spending several hours with my camera company Photos, my book and of course paper and pen That you do not miss!
And I make my way back to regain the feelings that need to stay alive ...
For my eyes overflowing with beauty and color ...
And my ears, the songs of birds and the murmur of fountains ...
And my skin, the warmth of the sun and humidity of the green meadow where I sit down to write as I do for you today.
And my mouth enjoyment, while I contemplate the countryside, the coolness of a drink of water as out of the bottle that always accompanies me on my walks, or the sweetness of a piece of fruit that sometimes bring ...
And I smell the perfume of flowers that arise everywhere in this exquisite station ...
I know you have problems! Some, indeed, very serious and my pain is so huge, but from here I want to send my message of hope and love ... all of them.
You know, of course, I always turn to each of you separately, unless you are sending a presentation of such material on the Internet.
But today I am thoughtful and I'm thinking about all the people outside my family, that are important in my life and are "there" for me as I I and will always be for them. And occupying the top of the list you are you, with a common link: To all I love you so much!
Isabel, my dear childhood friend. I know from 10 years. Recover please! Mean a lot to me. I promise that soon I will to make a visit. But I will as soon as I feel strong enough to make you laugh and not before. When we meet I have to remember things from when we went to school, because I think I'd write something about that time.
Pepita, my precious. You know how I feel about you and what you have to do at the moment I need. I told you yesterday and I repeat now. No more words need Is not love? What happens to you, but law is a bit of life is hard. Please keep all great encouragement, especially to help your mother through this terrible episode.
Nieves, dear and wise friend, rest assured that both will remain important to each other while we live. Since we have shown us more than once. Tell M that has a lot of willpower and desire to excel. Ever continue its efforts to recover and if you want dale to read this letter of encouragement though it may be a little roll, because it is too "poetic" and some made for people not so young como ella. Ya sabes quizás sea demasiado almibarado; tanto como lo es tu amiga Alicia.
Y finalmente tú Concha, mi querida amiga desconocida, como te llamé en el cuento en que te escribí ¿recuerdas?
Teniendo en cuenta que a Isabel la conozco hace unos 43 años, a Pepita 35 y a Nieves más de 20 (como verás tanto ellas como yo nos cansamos rapidito de ser amigas, je, je), tal vez no comprendas por qué te incluyo en este escrito. Porque la realidad es que nosotras dos no somos amigas, pero la principal razón, we have not had time to do so. However, to simply be "known" I think we understand quite well. N or you can not imagine how important you are to be for me in the past two months. And I am convinced that if we had lived years ago today would be "great friends." I sensed the 25th of March. And to could ensure that, if you could know, in my true image, I'd want a little bit. For my part my love and you have it, but I hope to have the opportunity to increase it.
I send copy of this letter because I imagine that you also have problems because we are definitely one of them free, you just assume and perhaps the least ... But you complain about everything because I know that you are very happy to know the progress of my difficulty. I look like a sky person!
By now more than one will be thinking to be more sleepy friends you have. But you know me very well indeed. And you know what you can expect from your dear Alicia: Laughter and tears shared great conversations and especially fondly. Come on, a bit of everything ... less indifference and detachment. By the way do you know any formula in order to "pass" for something or someone without experience? I'm afraid not. But if you succeed in finding it, please remember me and you send me because I have a season a bit complicated ...
I want to comment that, possibly, if nothing happens and no change of opinion next year I enrolled in the Open University in the Psychology career. As you understand, and at my age, do not contemplate study with professional expectations, but rather as a personal challenge to help me fill my free time and need to expand my knowledge and pass if I can learn something about human thought as great. It occurred to me that perhaps I could help, of course, totally disinterested, people with problems of "agoraphobia" or similar. I do not know. Still only a project. And will keep you informed anyway.
Well girls, as the finale and that you see all that in addition to soporific'm corny, I leave a little poem that is a summary of how I feel, but shortie and more or less rhymed. I almost always used to write free verse poetry without rhyme. But today I'll make an exception. I do not know if you like. And tell me something when you feel like it.
In any case, I dedicate it wholeheartedly. Thanks for existing and still be there, dear friends of mine!
NOW
Now life has returned to my senses,
since my brain, luckily, again,
allows my feet walking paths,
for years forgotten in my mind.
Now I can enjoy and relax, while enjoying the scenery slowly for inspiration, from top to bottom,
to plant the seed with my lyrics.
Now I can silence me baths,
of harmony, serenity, beauty,
am Happy because finally
mere presence
the rebirth of nature.
Now I dare even write rhymes
and dedicate them to people who love me,
because I'm free, just like my poems,
and I will respond, if they call me.
Isabel, Nieves, Pepita, Concha. A gorgeous besazo. And above all, Have lots of encouragement and take good care! And do not miss the photo, I send you, because it is one of my current hobbies: photography. And it is not bragging, but the truth is that I've got some nice photos! How so? But the truth is that in certain landscapes, has no merit whatsoever ... Crystal Palace - Retiro Park (May 2010)
Alicia
